No go on the chemo!

My doctor e-mailed me yesterday to let me know that, once again, my white count is too low for chemo. It sounds funny but initially it feels like a slap in the face, like my body is not cooperating with 'my plan.' I get frustrated because I have to change all my appointments for blood draws, doctors visits, and upcoming chemo. Then I get sad because I wonder if this course of treatment is just too tough for my body to handle. And, finally I remember that there is always next week! I get an extra day this week to go to work, take the kids to school, and I have one extra evening to get something done!

Over the last two weeks we have been settling into our winter routine of school, work, wrestling and trying to get organized around the house. I think we are making headway! Ian has helped build two shoe rackets (see my post about Ian-isms). Actually both boys have been very helpful as has my dad and brother. My mother-in-law got me some of those bags that you load up and suck the air out of and they are too cool! It is a work in progress, and I still have many closets to go through. But, if I don't start my spring cleaning now, it will never get finished!

Also, in the past two weeks I have been communicating with two women who are relatively new to the world of breast cancer. One friend's mother is newly diagnosed and the other is finding herself navigating the challenges of being a young breast cancer patient. Over the years lots of friends and friends of friends have contacted me about my breast cancer. It may seem odd, but I always feel at a loss. Every breast cancer diagnosis is as unique as the survivor herself and I am not a doctor. I learned a long time ago that these women weren't contacting me to hear pacifying ancedotes or medical statistics. They were calling me to get the real scoop. From the inside. So, now I try to be as frank and honest as I can. If they are to receive a drug or treatment that I have received, I try to give it to them straight. Then I pray that that is the right thing to do.

One of my friends was trying to put my cancer timeline together so maybe I will make that my next post. For now, I am going to get dinner on the table and enjoy my evening! Have a great week everyone!